Smooth Sailing...

These couple weeks have been a success. The waves have settled and "Ahoy! - land is in view!!! " Our little boat is coming in!
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Jean marc is doing better. He is going longer and longer without any "serious" problems. I am still hodling my breath a lot of the time, but - feeling now that this may be it! The worst is really over. We can all relax a little.. I feel like I could sleep for the next 9 months...
Time to layout on the boat and get some sun! The rain is gone!

 The boys too I think. We could all use a really long nap...or a really great HOLIDAY!!!!!!

 And so we continue with our window gazing and pastry eating. I've started to run a little again, swim a little, and things have gotten their taste back. We can all actually enjoy a good dessert, a nice chocolate eclair...things are starting to have taste again, for real, not just "for written".

 And my baby boys have done and excellent job of hanging on through this roller coaster. Of doing their best, of doing what they have to do. It's like I handed them both little backpacks at the beginning of this adventure, packed them with strength, love and courage and sent them on their way, sometimes alone, and through dark forests, hoping they would make good use of what they had if they needed. And they did...

 and they came out like champions. With the support of one another, through the good, the bad and the ugly.

...Today Jm is walking some, cooking some, working some, and loving to be up and about again with Kenji and Keo. Papa is back, slowly. Things are still rough sometimes, some days are good, some are not. He needs lots of rest, he needs to get some weight back on, he needs to recover lots. His attitude of steel has gotten him through this, he doesn't even look back at what has happened. I guess we all don't, not yet at least..we are just trying to dust ourselves off still, and I don't know when that time will be when we all come around to looking back. All I know for sure is that it is still not yet. We are still running with our feet off the ground trying to get the hec out of where we have just been and not yet ready to talk about our experience. 

- looking to the future is not a bad thing after all sometimes and going through this without the support of family & friends near and far have made everything good possible. i am so lucky.

(and i am so happy to write this post. It feels like a little story coming to end, with a good, GREAT ending.)

xoxoxo